I feel like the most archaic form of evil feelings human has is arrogance. Its existence can be traced back to the time when humans hadn’t even set their foot on the earth yet. It’s a feeling so primal and so old but also so familiar because we still breathe it in and out, in and out.
Arrogance is not our neighbor nor our acquaintance. It’s inside us. It resides there on the deepest pit of your, and my, heart. To be fair, even though I said ‘deepest’, most of the time it’s not important. As long as we still live with a constantly overflowing arrogance, not even burying the feeling underground could prevent that rotten thing from spilling out to the outside world.
Yes, let’s talk about our feelings, shall we?
Human mind and emotion is very interesting. And I just found out that people can invest almost all of their happiness to a single thing or person.
Honestly … It is such a new concept for me. All this long, I feel like I have tons of reasons to be happy, as much as I have tons of other reasons that make me sad. For me, human emotion is affected by countless variables in life, so the idea of our life being crushed down just because of one particular reason baffles me.
For example, I might be sad if I score badly in tests, heck I might even cry myself to sleep because of it. But even then, I’ll smile again after some time, maybe after a talk with my parents, maybe after joking around with my friends, or simply after browsing cute kitten videos on the internet (you should definitely try this!).
The school examination is on Monday until Saturday next week. But, my parents have always said to me with complete understanding, “Your ideas always come up when you are going to have examination.” I can’t bear it to not write down the ideas that are jumping around inside my head. My fingers are forcing themselves to dance on my laptop’s keyboard. And, here it is. Instead of reviewing three years lessons, I spent my weekend to play with words.
As parents, I can say that my Umi and Abi have done a great job! How can I say that? Well, because… I often share stories with my friends. We tell each other about our family. I hear many types of parents who are my friend’s. And at the end, they say; “You’re so lucky. When I am grown up, I want to be a parent just like yours. I don’t want to take care of my future children like my mom and dad did. Definitely no.”
I am grown up in a very small family. There are just my parents and I. Yes, I am the only child in my family. We live in a not-so-big but comfortable house in Malang, East Java. My parents are enterpreneurs. They build their own company since they are married, from zero. They make a special kind of cookies named Cumcum Salsa. It is a cone-like cookies filled with sweet cream and a colourful chocolate chip on the top of it. They make several other pastry too.